i love, yet hate you .

warning :
this is a very emo , er and long(?)post, yes i admit it,emo , so i suggest you just scram(?)
yeah , not in a good mood now .















I felt my heart shattering into a zillion pieces

after 1plus years, i still cant believe i still cant get over you .
you are the reason for my smiles, laughter, angry-ness and tears .

for the first time in my life , i cried so much for something .

although i know im being silly but the footprints you have left
.in my head is really just too deep .

There will always a hole in my heart that will never be mend .

whn i first saw you i know we were meant to be tgt,

but sometimes fate likes to play a fool of us .

Although we have only spent a few years tgt , you are alr like a family member to me .
everytime i think of you , when i think of the place when we last met ,

tears will flow like nobody's business . No words can describe how i feel .

All i could say is that i could practically feel my heart shattered into a zillion pieces .

I dk what will happen to me next month on that day .

someone told me before that letting it out is the best way . but the more i let out ,

the more i feel hurt , let me tell you , its like losing your closest kin .

ok i got to stop thinking for now alr . i dont want to be discovered by my family members

that i have been crying . it sucks . and they might think that im foolish ,cause it has been years alr .

But it isn't wrong to think of something which spents everyday with you for more thn 3 yrs right ?

love is hard to get ,

but harder to let go.

love is short,

but forgetting is longer.

you will never understand why i hurt so much,

because you are not the one who is crying,

you are not the one who is left behind,

you are not the one who loved too much,

you are not the one having all the memories,

and you are not the one who is holding on to someone who is gone ...

you dont have to let it slip away but you want to ,

i dont want to let it slip away but i have to .

the hardest thing for you to do is to watch someone you love, love someone else .
but for me , the hardest thing to do is to only have 5 secs to bade goodbye

to someone who means everything , and to see it leave knowing you will never see it agn ...

FML . screw it .