but you keep surfacing , each time i tried to forget you .

cute ain't !? :)



today went out after lunch .
met carmen , thn headed to club for arcade ./
had ddr session , daytona
and one new machine with lots of games one
dk call wht . LOL wanted to play lan games ,
but waste time and $$ so nvm .
thn whn we playing ddr got one girl see us play thn
go say ," woah so easy ! = ='
thn ltr we play finish we see her play ,
she dont even know how to play la .
so me and carmen kind souls ,
teach her . LOl , went playground for awhile ,
thn to lot , met bernard and alvis on the way ,
bernard gave me $2 for bubble tea, so good lor :)
went to meet father , brought drinks thn went to
meet lixian , bought some THINGS .
hehe , i think it looks really nice on me :P LMAO .
thn back home ard 6 .
bored again , sigh .
i tried to watch dramas , but i think i need those
touching/romance/comedy ?
like i need to be really interested .
i dont really like those movies right , the
beginning damn boring those kind /
LOL . i want watch eight below !!! damn !@#$%^& miss tht movie :(
sigh , saying bout this, i rmb him .

charissa !!! stop thinking abt him kays ! no matter how much you miss him , he will never be back ok , get him out of your mind .


How can you ask me to do tht ?!
i'll never do it, you know it .







I MISS THIS little boy up thr .
-you know , ppl say , "cheer up , its okay , dont broad over it " etc ..
but isit really so easy to cheer up ? so easy to forget ? so easy to get over it ?
its not okay , its really not . i really feel like hiding , hide in some whr, whr no one
can see me ,and cry my lungs out .
i want to take down tht mask ,but i think i really would break down this time .
i tried before , not once , not twice but many times . and each time whenever i failed ,
i would need to go through the consequences , of my actions for trying to give up .
those really hurts . i dont wanna be living in a world of regrets , but why do
i feel so regretful now ? give me a chance to mend will you ?




- bye .